I miss you. I see you everyday. We even sleep by each other's side. But I miss you so much. Even if you're right next to me.
|I have an interview over at Macy's. I applied for retail support. I went from receptionist to sales associate to cashier back to sales associate and hopefully retail support. I hope all goes well.|
I was suppose to resign as a sales associate for my current job but if I had known earlier I would've completed a resignation letter. But... No. I don't want to be the talk of my employees saying what I had done was unprofessional and that I should've done it the right way or whatever.
Do you know what a new game means? It means fun. Right? Yeah, sure... Loads of fun. But it's not so fun when he stops having fun with you. He wakes up, game. I feel so stupid for hanging around him when he's sleeping in hopes that he'll wake up and just you know, hang out. Spend some time with me. And I seem like a crazy girlfriend for bitching about that. I put our relationship on the line. I'm trying to stop. I know he just wants to enjoy before he leaves for training and all.
I'm just tired of always going back to that point. Of feeling like I'm already his girlfriend. But I've got to stop being so stubborn. I really need to stop being silly. If I want this relationship to work then I gotta learn. I just need to work at it. I houldnt make him mad. He does to much for me. and me being silly doesn't help at all.
New job offer = happiness (for now XD )
We text. A LOT! We make jokes. We can make each other laugh & smile. We get each other thinking. We spill out our feelings. But he knows. He knows that I have a boyfriend. & that I love him so much. & how it was so dumb of me to tell him that if he were to cheat on me I would still be with him. But no, I know it won't be like that. If he cheats on me... I don't know. I have no fuckin idea of what hell I might do. I may do the most unthinkable thing. Or not. He knows that I would do anything for my boyfriend. That I'm ready to commit & devote my whole life to him.
But her? If you do exist. Step the fuck away from who I love. Because as immature this may sound, I will fuck you up. & I am dead serious.