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I love you, Mommy. I'm sure you have an idea of how much I do. Of how much we all do. I still find it so surreal. =] whatever! in your words, "Bitch."
Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth
In your heart
If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I
Souls in the winds
must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears
All away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come
Home to stay
If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I
When we are out there
In the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark
We'll feel the light
Warm our hearts
Everyone
If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
As high
As souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I |
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| I wish I can look straight into their eyes.
I wish I can speak without stuttering.
I wish I can give them a straight answer.
I wish I can keep my head up.
I wish I can tell THEM that they're stupid.
I wish I can slap THEM in the face.
I wish I can bury THEM more than 6 feet underground. ALIVE.
I wish I can show THEM how careless they have been this whole time.
But you know what?
I know that everything will be alright. No matter what happens.
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| My sister is due on January 3! It's a boy, if I haven't mentioned it yet. His name is Ryan.
They said she might give birth earlier than that. & that Ryan might be a New Year's baby.
Ate's birthday is on January 4! She's turning 22.
Charles is leaving January 4... For basic training. for 15 weeks... 'nuff said... |
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| Her, "Do you still love me?"
Him, "No."
Her, "No, what?"
Him, "No, I don't love you."
I feel so bad for her. He was all she had. |
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| Ever get that feeling when everything you built just comes crashing down on you? My mom told me, "Go invite your friends." To our family gathering. I told her, "Uh yeah. Sure."
I was so foolish. I was so blinded. Friends. Hah. What a word. What is a friend? Dictionary.com says.....
1. A person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. A person who gives assistance; patron; supporter
3. A person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile.
4. A member of the same nation, party, etc.
5. A member of a religious Society of Friends; a Quacker.
Okaaaaay. So let's scratch out number 4 & 5.
But fuck it. Thing is. With what happened... Why do I still bother. Do I care? Wow... Maybe I do. Actually, no. When I tell myself, "Maybe I still care." I get that feeling... telling me, "No, I honestly don't anymore." Now why? Why is that? I keep saying this over and over and over again. I just want to move on. So I'm clearing out my room. Throwing it all away. Starting fresh. And when I say all, I mean all. Well, besides all the important stuff. Pictures, letters, sentimental items... going, going, going..... GONE!
But honest truth, sometimes I do miss having friendS. And sometimes I think to myself, did I drive them away? And the thought that follows that... No, I didn't. I just need to grow up. Face all the facts. This slap is still hurting me... I'm trying to ease the pain.
Because honestly. In the end, we really just only have our family and ourselves. Friends do come and go. But I'm glad to know that some of them stick around.
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